Author: Tuula Haapiainen Date: Subject: [Cerchio] Her Diary / His Diary
HER DIARY
Saturday night I thought he was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at
a bar to have a drink. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I
thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no
comment. Conversation wasn't flowing so I suggested that we go somewhere
quiet so we could talk, he agreed but he kept quiet and absent. I asked him
what was wrong - he said, "Nothing." I asked him if it was my fault that he
was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry.
On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept
driving. I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say, "I
love you, too." When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he
wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched T.V.;
he seemed distant and absent.
Finally I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed and
to my surprise he responded to my caress and we made love, but I still felt
that he was distracted and his thoughts were somewhere else. I decided that
I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the
situation but he had fallen asleep. I started crying and cried until I too
fell asleep. I don't know what to do. I'm almost sure that his thoughts are
with someone else. My life is a disaster.
